Sunday, December 30, 2007 . 12/30/2007 02:18:00 pm

Minna, I am proud to announce that without the help of my Chinese teacher and with the help of my dear friend Jovy, I have successfully logged into the stupid sharepoint. Also, since everything in there is a FLOOD of Chinese chracters, and as you know I'm probably better at Jap than at Chinese (Meh. Gomene.), with the help of my dear mother who - surpirisingly, considering that her daughter is so weak in Chinese - is good in chinese, Google.com and the stupid 'textbook', I finished my hw. On time, even. Wow.

I have diarrhea, minna. It's not a very nice experience. Trust me.

Well, I guess that's it. More homework to do, unfortunately. Sigh. This is the life of poor por Amberle-chan.

---Amberle-chan =)

Friday, December 28, 2007 . 12/28/2007 06:22:00 pm

Yay~! I am finally THIRTEEN!!!! I don't have to fake my age anymore. Demo, that means, gone with the nice children specials that ages 13 and above don't get. Haiz...

But, I'm finally a teen! And I didn't rebel at all today, my handwriting is WAAAAAY nicer (I can finally write without cursive) and! The best of all, I FOUND A COSPLAY SHOP!!!!! If I were (note, were)rich, I would've bought lots. But I didn't.T^T And I'm not. Meep.

Got some postcards for Wendy and Alethea. Of course they're Bleach, what did you expect? XD

It's a pretty nice shop. We're the only ones to go for the gift-wrapping service. It's after Christmas anyways. XD The people over there looked shocked.XP

Jaa, I'll give you the address (of the shop, of course)(typed exactly like on the namecard):
Otaku House @ Suntec
3 Temasek Boulevard
#03-089/089A
(My.Playground)
Suntec City Mall
Singapore 038983

Tel: (65)6887 4381
enquiries@myotakuhouse.com
www.myotakuhouse.com

Yes, minna, it's in Singapore. The prices are pretty reasonable, or so my mother says. 50 postcards plus a very nice case (the back is of Memories of Nobody): S$12.90

I bought 2 Kon plushies at S$10 (at another shop). They were having a discount thingy. 1 for S$8. Wow. 0.o

Not far away from My Otaku House, there's a sword shop (they sell FAKE swords and guns - not sure fake or not, most probably fake though - and those old samurai letter opener - shaped as mini swords - and others). See if you can find Ichigo's zanpakutou there. One for over S$200 (I think).

Though it's my birthday, I'm still short though. T^T

---Amberle-chan =)

Friday, December 21, 2007 . 12/21/2007 10:04:00 pm

I haaaaaaaate homework! Argh! Why are we plagued with it? What the hell? It's the December holidays for goodness sake!!!

Argh. And tomorrow, the DiamondDust Rebellion is officially out. What the hell. And here I am plagued with homework. Banzai...NOT.

I think I'll just stare at my IchiRuki poster for a few moments just to calm down. Wait...I sound like a weirdo. 0.o

Yes, that poster is the same exact one that I have been waiting for a freaking long time. In the end, I just took the sample. There will be no more new stock anyways. Demo the sample has scratches on dear 'Chigo. Oowaahs~ T^T

Sigh. Sometimes I really wish that I am a much better person. I mean, so many people at school hate me that they torment me so. And I'm not all that fabulous anyways. What's the use of knowing all the lyrics to some anime songs but being told the next moment, "No offence, but your singing sucks." Geez. Arigatou gozaimasu. That made my day. Not.

And I can't draw well, though yes, the librarian told me blah blah blah, but without reference, I really just can't draw. I really wish I can draw fanart someday.

Also, I feel that I'm fat and ugly, and that is why though I want to cosplay, I don't dare too. Though I like miniskirts, I don't dare to wear them. But stubborn me just will NEVER go for plastic surgery. Never.

I dream of the day when I can finally wear Byachi's (Ahem. Byakuya. Sorry, can't help but give him a nice little nickname. Just like Ichigo has 'Chigo, Rukia has 'Kia and Renji has 'Ren-Ren'. XP)(Ok, I admit, Byachi wasn't thought up by me. Gomene!! But credits go to that person. I forgot who. Gomene for using it without your permission. Kill me if you want!!><)(By the way, I don't mean really kill me.)captain robes and his dear sweet kenseikan. I saw a Byachi plush doll once. KYAAA~! I regret not buying it. T^T

Hmm, seems like I can die of depression if I go on. Listening to sad music does NOT help at all.

That and my teacher hasn't replied to my problem yet. Sigh.

I don't know what to do. Some peoples' lives are filled with joy and happiness. It seems that I am the only one in my class like this. It's amazing that I have not started slashing myself yet.

That or I'm afraid of pain. XD

Wow. My humor's still intact. Not bad.

Ahem. Anyways, back to the topic. Because of that, I sometimes wish and wish and start daydreaming that the Bleach cast blah blah blah, which results in my worrying of me going insane. (See post just below.) And, because of that, I get frustrated. I get the feeling that no one understands me. Which results in me creating even more imaginary characters to calm me and 'understand' me. Which results in me worrying for my sanity. And it just goes on and on in a loop. UNTIL! I can't stand it anymore and I start rebelling. So, Dad and Mum, read this please. But not in front of me, of course. I'd hate that. I don't know why, so don't ask me.

I can write Byachi's, Hisana's, Rukia's, Renji's and 'Chigo's FULL name in Jap. And a few others too. I find Hisana's chinese version of her name quite nice.=)

MAAAAAAATTE! I am still random. Hey, not bad! In my depression, I can still have my (weird) sense of humor and randomness. And sarcasm.

Anyways, what were we talking about?...Ah yes! Hisana. I might want to name my future daughter after her.

However, there's one major problem. I don't want to get married. XD

Also, if I really did get married, I'm afraid my child will be a rebel like me. Teenagers rebel. It's normal. (I always say that teenagers who don't rebel are abnormal. Gomene!! I was always in a rage (of rebellion...DiamondDust R- Ahem. Sorry.)whenever I said that. I guess you can guess why...)Look! Even anime characters rebel! 'Chigo rebels!! So, dad and mum, I know you guys do not rebel when you were teens etc etc, but that was another age. Grow u-, I mean, face it!

...What's gotten into me?

What the hell. I've written far into my essay to find that I am OFF TOPIC! ARARA!!(That's what I say when I'm angry...sometimes. Also, under the influence of Uchiha Xairylle's fanfics, I say 'Ara!' too. I bet my sis finds it annoying. XD)

Speaking of my sis...she always seems to find me...something...because I like acting like anime chars. (NOT impersonating. ACTING. I don't walk around and say,"Konnichiwa. Watashi wa Kuchiki Rukia desu. Ogenki desu ka?"), which she finds STUPID. Sometimes I find her really irritating. But she's my only sister, and younger sister. 'Chigo, in his rebellious state, still cares about his sisters. I should too. But sometimes I just can't, you know. I try to not get mad, but after a few seconds, I go mad. I should go for 'endurance' class. Hmm...

Wow, I typed a lot today, huh?

Must hurry up with hw!! But sometimes, my mind doesn't cooperate...Sigh...

I feel that I am dying of depression. I need someone REAL, not a figment of my mind's work, to REALLY understand me. Who?!

New resolution list for New year: (I checked the last one. That was written when I still wasn't rebelling. A hell lot has changed since then.)
1. For whoever-and-whatever's sake, PLEASE be a better person.
2. STOP being so lazy.
3. Do more of my hobbies! If I have more things to occupy my mid, then I won't daydream that much, and...you know what? My hobby is daydreaming...=.=
4. Get into the pure science stream next next year. Ganbatte~! (Yes, streaming is next year.)
5. Update on FF.net more.
6. Write better stories.
7. Take better control of my life. Don't get tormented so easily. Be like 'Chigo! Or Byachi!...Wait, I guess that's why I'm so cold nowadays. Oops...
8. Get into GZ Performing Group next next year. In other words, selection is next year. ARA! Ganbatte~!
9. Learn coding! I want to finally code my own blogskin. However, no matter how many books I read on it, I still don't understand. Umm, a little help here please?
10. Find a counselor. Learn anger management.
11. Find an EXPERT (Yes, I'm that hopeless, according to me)singing teacher to PERFECT my voice so I can finally SHOW-OFF(...0.o) that I DO know the lyrics to anime music!
12. Draw well~ I really want to draw fanart. Really really want to.
13. Go to at least ONE Bleach/IchiRuki festival/convention. I'm that hopeless. I know.
14. Make a snow angel. (I'm pathetic! I know! It doesn't snow here, you know?!)
15. Grow slimmer. Please. Onegai. Qiu qiu ni. Or the equal of it in other languages.
16. Get STRAIGHT A1s AGAIN for Jap.
17. Get into top 3 of class and top 10 of level next year. Overall.

I better not put anymore in. I might die. 0.o

Jaa...I'm tired. Leave poor por me be.

---Amberle-chan

Thursday, December 20, 2007 . 12/20/2007 09:18:00 pm

I feel that I am going insane. I'm not joking. I've known it for a pretty long time but I just won't admit it. When I was P3, my teacher told me that she had a friend who kept daydreaming and she went insane. I feel that the same is happening to me. But, if I don't daydream, my life would be in ruins. Shattered. It is only because I keep escaping into that world that I am able to keep alive. Nothing like the Bleach cast comforting you after a long day with no one understanding you at all.

Demo, I'm going mad. How do I know? Simple. I keep thinking that they really do exist. In other words, I'm really going mad. I might even start talking to them, out loud, in public.

I need a psychologist. Real bad. But would I ever tell my parents. No way. I know it's stupid, but everyone has their own pride.

I have a LOT of it, if it is countable.

I'm going mad. But honestly, I would prefer to go mad than face life. That's why I stopped believing in God. Sure, though I would never admit it, I believe in God a long long time ago.

However, on one fateful day, I thought, "If God created us just to make our lives miserable, and make so many people get abused, create sexists etc, than I'd rather he didn't create us. Maybe He doesn't exist at all." So, I stopped believing. And don't start saying that "It's us humans that etc etc". I've stopped. There's another reason too, but I'm not typing it down. Someone will sue me! XD

Jaa...What can I do? You know, it's time I stand up and stop escaping. Or time to see a psychologist. Or a counselor (not those prefect people). Whatever.

---Amberle-chan

Wednesday, December 19, 2007 . 12/19/2007 10:20:00 pm

I. Am. Rebelling. Period.

Wow. Imagine this. The all-so-sweet Amberle-chan. Rebelling. Hard to imagine, right?

NOT.

I. Am. Rebelling. I repeat, I. AM. REBELLING!

I shall become a great 'rebel-master' like Ichigo. Not because I am his fan so I wanna imitate him or something like that, but it's more like it's because I am rebelling now. So, I 'look up' to the great rebellers. Hahahaha.

My foot.

But whatever. I just want you to know that I am not trying to imitate Ichigo or whatsoever. I will not go that low...Well, also because I don't want to get demerit points by bashing people up. XD

Anyways!! I have not finished my hw. Yet. And Sun laoshi hasn't replied. Yet.

WTF. Once again.

Watched 'Alvin and the Chipmunks' with Ka-chan, Chalice and Cheese today. At a cinema. Demo the tickets are so expensive... T^T

On the plus side, I have gotten a Bleach Character book thingy! With stickers! AND! Tite Kubo's pic. AND!!! A rewritten Bleach story. AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All the manga titles from bk 1~19. Not that I need it anyways, but...

Tite Kubo, I love you. In a fan way...More like in a 'thank-you-very-much' way. (That's how I sat thank you very much to my friends~)

And much more!! Though the book is $11.90, it's very worth it. VERY!

Whoots for me~!

Okie...Homework. Sigh...Cheers, minna.

---Amberle-chan =)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007 . 12/18/2007 10:44:00 pm

Just watched Memories of Nobody. Pretty touching~ The dress that Rukia wears makes her look...pregnant. 0.o

With Ichigo's?XD

Senna is cute. But it has a pretty sad ending.

Ara...

---Amberle-chan I can't log into the freaking sharepoint! If I can't, then how on heck am I going to do my -toot- homework? And why just me? WHY?! I bet someone freaking idiot changed the password...

I. Don't. Freaking. Care. NOT.

I am so damn irritated. And when I'm so damn irritated, I curse. A lot.

But I've gotten Lei to help me print it out. But what if the teacher refuses to mark it? And what if the freaking idiots go submit 'my' hw, only done like bloody heck.

WTF.

Ichigo, if you were me, what would you have done. Go 'I don't care' or go bash them up? Yeah, use your mighty zanpakutou and slash them. I wish I could do that. ARGH!

I am so damn pissed. Sigh.

On the plus note, I've found the english-subbed version of Memories of Nobody. Even if I'm a year late.

The DiamondDust Rebellion out on 22/12.

And I've not finished my hw.

And school's reopening soon.

Can I kill myself and join you, Rukia? Please?

No, I must hang in there.

Demo, Ichigo, just appear in my dreams once and say you love me? Please?

That would really make my day.

Or night. Whatever.

---Amberle-chan

Sunday, December 02, 2007 . 12/02/2007 10:15:00 pm

Oowaaahs~! How long has it been since I've updated?! Hmm, this just shows how much I like slacking. Yay~!

Banzai to slacking!! Lalalalala~!XD

Had a GZ exam today. It was pretty much ok, until I freaked out and twang the WRONG STRINGS, making the song sound so...so...WRONG, at the FREAKING LAST MOMENT!! SONNA!!!

Ichigo is sooo....Wait, wait, must not let fangirl-ism get the better of me. ARGH!!

I. Am. So. Weird.

But I don't care.

You know, though it sounds ultimately stupid, I have always communicated with an imaginary Ichigo in my mind. Well...Not really communicated. It's more like thinking and then thinking up Ichigo's response myself. Gosh, it sounds so stupid, but it's not like I have that many friends, right?

Anyways, teachers, now you have explaination why Amberle-chan is always staring into blank space and then smirking after a short while. Or frowning. Depends of whatever weird response her mind had thought up. For Ichigo. Yeah...

I know I'm weird. Bear with me, otherwise...just forget me. You know, there are a bunch of people at her school who hates me. But, I'm used to it. They can scream, yell, jump and scream some more and Amberle-chan will just ignore them, while at the same time 'communicating telepathically' with imaginary Ichigo, probably thinking something like this,"Wow. The last time I checked, this place was a school, not a zoo." Or something constructive like that. Whatever.

Anyways, I'm going back to dwell in the World of Fanfics. The best world ever. Apart from the World of Amberle-chan's Daydreams, of course. Honestly, you wouldn't want to know what's going on in her mind when she's daydreaming.

You know, there was once when she fell asleep just after she daydreamed about something, and when she fell asleep, she dreamt that she was married to Ichigo. AHEM! Please do not let your mind wander into the dirty little paths. Thank you.

Wait, what happened to my faith of IchiRuki-ness? You know, this is turning pretty much to IchiAmberle-ness.

Or so I hope. But I don't think Tite Kubo is going to add me inot Bleach and let me get married to Ichigo.

Even if he does, the fans will kill me. I think.

And I hope not.

But at any rate, I'll stop ranting. I got so carried away! Didn't I say I was going to the World of FFs? Yeah, I'm going now.

Just a thing before I do, though. I have just came back from Bangkok and has a gigantic teddy bear called Hisana.

Which I carried onto the plane, since there was no more room in the luggage.

Imagine a near teenage girl carrying a giant bear around. Not very...good for first impressions?

But who cares?

Not I.

Anyways, ja ne~!

Amberle-sama...I mean Amberle-chan. XD