Sunday, February 22, 2009 . 2/22/2009 06:09:00 pm

You know, when life poses a very difficult question, you either try your very best to solve it or just leave it alone. Well, right now, I'm stuck with such a question. And I'm struggling my very best to solve it.

It isn't the kind of question where you can simply ask a tuition teacher or go google it and then you get the answer. And it's not as if you can go ask anyone for the answer...Well, actually you can, but the few specific people you can ask most probably won't tell you the answer.

I'm stuck, people. Mr Chan will probably be very happy because he likes his students to get stuck when solving a problem. But, this isn't a maths problem. This is the kind of problem akin to when life just simply drops a bomb and leave it hanging there. It's a Life problem, people. It's even harder than an A Maths question and a Physics question joined together.

I'm curious, very curious. Maybe too curious for my own good. Maybe you will even kill me for posting this.

But, you shouldn't have dropped the bomb in the first place. (:

Too bad~~

I'm that mischievous. (:















What, don't stare at me. I'm waiting for a hint! D:

Friday, February 20, 2009 . 2/20/2009 11:21:00 pm

I'm no longer in logs. I'm a leader now. (:

And I look forward to "serving" my group, lols! ;D But rest assured, I won't be a tragic one. Cuz I know how the group members will feel if they have a tragic one.

Trust me, it's not a good feel. I have first-hand experience in this. :X

My life is in utter confusion now. Grades are tragic, homework is piling, SYF is coming, and emotional confusion is rampant.

Ohkay, maybe the right word isn't "rampant". But you get what I mean. ;D

I have completed draft two of the oral script, and though it is way better than the first one, I still don't feel it is up to standard. Maybe I'm just setting way too high goals for myself, and pushing myself too hard. Who knows? :/

Life is tough, just admit it. D:

By the way, I have a question that I still cannot solve. Why is my sister slimmer than me when she has the same weight as me? D:

Is it because she's taller? ><

Ahhhhh. D:

But, like Rui Nah likes to say, 桥到船头自然直。 Though I know it's supposed to be 船到桥头自然直。;D

Should I join XGT? ...Nah, I'm busy enough as it is.

GZ is quite fun nowadays, though quite stressing. :X And, I have to admit, my ear has really improved at a rate that even I'm surprised at. I mean, what's a musician without a good ear? :X

And a writer without strong control over words.

Speaking of which, I feel I control words better when I write than when I type. I wonder why, lols. :/

I'm not trying to brag, I'm just admitting my strengths, LOLS. xDD

Ohkay, I need my beauty sleep now.

Well then, goodnight.;D

On a little side note, Waffle, I just love you so much. >< Thank you so much, niichan.

Sunday, February 15, 2009 . 2/15/2009 01:24:00 pm

我的老天。We have a project due tomorrow and I still haven't written the oral script. Ahhhhh! D:

And, I still haven't done some homework.

Good one, Chelsea. You're steadily on your way to 10A1s. Sarcasm intended.

Ohkays, lols. Let's forget about homework for the time being.(:

The previous two posts are emo posts. Please do not pay too much attention to them.

My flu hasn't gone away yet. I feel tragic.:X

Yesterday's theory lesson was quite fun, though a bit traumatic. :X We had to tell which piece came from which period. And, I've improved a lot. The last time, I couldn't even tell. Now I can. Even when the teacher played a trick question and everyone guessed "Classical", I knew it was "20th/21st Century."

And, my ear really improved. Whees~!

I'm in Logistics in the GZ camp comm. My gawd, first day and I made a mistake. ><

But seriously, Logarithms sounds nicer. xD

Well, both are logs anyways. xD (Fine, I'm lame. Ignore me. :X)

Ahhh, I saw Waffle yesterday! He's soooooo cute!! x3

Shitzus are so cute~

And, technology's real cool. 0_o I'm so super super lag. ><

Or "outdated", quoted from NII-CHAN. xD

By the way, NII-CHAN told me to post in Jap. My gawd, in Jap. 0_o

Will a short prose do? ><

もう二月だ。四月に、SYF がある。あ、どうすればいい？＞＜　今は本当に忙しいなあ！練習の時間がないよ。

これはだめだよ！チェルシー、がんばろう！

Ok, happy? ><

I gotta go now. Well then~(:

Friday, February 13, 2009 . 2/13/2009 10:43:00 pm

I feel that life is super unfair de. Like, I have a project due on Monday too. So why does my sister get the priority instead?

And, I'm like super mega stressed.

And, I have to like always 看人家的脸色。

And, I'm often left out.

And and and! I'm a super dumb, super ugly person. Ugh.

Therefore,

I have came to a conclusion.

Life is unfair.

It is only fair to idiots.

...Or something along the lines.

I'm just venting, don't mind me.

En, so, from today onwards, I'm going to find something I'm passionate about and excel in it and stick to it.

I'm passionate about music, so I'm going to continue making music.

I'm passionate about languages, because I love writing, so hell yeah, I love languages.

I'm passionate about writing, duh.

So,

The rest of the world can just go and die.

Eg. Homework. Not that it can die, but you get what I mean. (:

I'm just gonna stick to those, and who cares about homework and tests and exams and scoring and doing well? Cuz, it's like, "Oh, Chelsea, you must do well in this, you must do well in that." My parents have such high expectations of me.

If I don't die I will die.

Ok, that makes no sense.

But I'm sure you get what I mean.

And, I'm just super ugh. Like, argh! Why are some people born with beauty AND brains? I'm just dumb and ugly. Like, real dumb and ugly.

Sometimes, I seriously hate myself. But blah, people just add insult to injury.

Or I just add insult to injury.

I hate the fact that I'm not non-existence.

So there.

Monday, February 09, 2009 . 2/09/2009 09:28:00 pm

Sometimes, I feel unimportant.

Sometimes, I feel unnecessary.

Sometimes, I feel that I don't belong.

Sometimes, I feel mega extra.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm a waste of space.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm damn useless.

Sometimes, I feel super stupid.




Sometimes, I just hate myself.

Sunday, February 08, 2009 . 2/08/2009 08:42:00 pm

I narrated a typical day of my school life to my sis, and this is what she said, "Oh my gawd, you have such an anime kind of life. Shoujo anime, I mean."

Oh. My. Gawd.

I know my life is interesting, but it isn't anime-like, seriously. You'll believe me when you read what I told her.

A Friday. Meaning, half an hour recess. Lei Shi sacrificing her recess for me. (Thank you!!!!><) Okays, here's how it goes.

Rui Nah and I were together, and Lei came along. Which made me tell her about Sonal. Which made us go hunt for Sonal. And we found him queuing up at the drinks stall. And, being the super brave person she is, dragged me towards him and was like, "Let's talk to Sonal!" And I was like, pulling away, shouting at the top of my lungs, "No! Noooo!"

Surprisingly, Sonal didn't hear us. Wow. I thought I was being super loud. :X

Ok, anyways, when we turned around to look, SONAL WAS GONE!!! So Lei went to change.

Afterwards, I gathered my courage and was like, "Ok, Lei, let's go look for Sonal!" in a determined kinda way.

So we went. And just in time - we saw Sonal's departing back. He was walking with someone, another tall dude. So I got shy again. But Lei motivated me. Thank you! Without you I couldn't do this. (LOLS! The way I write is so weird. :X)

Then I shouted, "Heys, Sonal!!!!" super loudly. Sonal must be deaf - he didn't hear me yet again. That or the person beside him was too mesmerising, I don't know. :X

So I nearly gave up, and Lei motivated me again. And we CHASED after Sonal, and I, feeling a sudden surge of courage, ran super fast, till I was in front of him and started jumping and waving my arms about madly.

Turns out, the dude beside him was none other than Ryotsuki-sama. And he was like, "Oh, Sonal, here's your lover."

(You should go learn differentiation yourself. LOLS! Ok, sorry, those are your words, I know. ><)

So Lei and Sonal talked and talked. And I just walked silently beside them. Awwws. D;

And then Ryo and Sonal reached the stairs, and surprisingly, SAMANTHA LET THEM UP. 0_o

Dear Samantha, may I inquire as to why you would always glare at Rui Nah and I when we try to go up that stairs?

Ok, anyways, Ryo turned around and stuck out his tongue at me. Which irritated me -I don't know why. Which made me shout at him. Which made him look smug.

Therefore, Jovy, sorry to crush your hopes, but your hypothesis is wrong. In fact, impossible. ;D

I repeat, impossible.

And that's about it.

See, what's so anime about that? :X

Lols, I'm weird. xD

---Cherushi.(:

P.S. Thank you for forgiving me!! >< I didn't insult you in this post, did I? ;D